I'm bordering on being whiney here, but really, truly, honestly, my life as of now feels totally bleak and cloudy. Stark contrast to a few months ago when I felt secure and happy that I have my family, my friends and dance, eh? I just feel super insecure. Like, I suck really badly. And this is affecting EVERYTHING around me nao, like omfgcheesebuns. I don't dare to really be myself and go make new friends in school cause I feel like I suck and no one will wna be friends with me. I feel totally stagnant in dance cause my confidence died. It was funny cause these are the things I know I can do. Pirouette, no prob, or at least it used to be. One and a half turns, I could so definitely do when I was practicing by myself. Chenneyes (?), I used to be able to do four nice ones before I go mad dizzy. But I seem to have lost all these, and it's making me shit depressed cause I suck. ): Don't even mention camps, I feel like a complete whale.

I don't know how I'm supposed to help myself out of this void.